Monday, May 7, 2018

Porcelain Mask


                                  { PC : Pinterest }
/Oh! Why so dark ?
Eyes of mine , not big enough .
This bloated face, No way !
Thin lips are never sensuous .
Emergency !! Apps rush to my rescue
Blurring here and sharpening there
A colormode change on an airbrushed face
Cropped to Perfection!
Voila!!
As the veil of reality is lifted
Porcelain perfect mask in all its glory
ready for netizens.
Basking in the glory of
generous comments pouring
on Facebook and Instagram and twitter,
a few lines from a friend
tugs my heart chord and
Thud! i land on my feet

"Ethereal indeed , a face that
anyone would want to hold
But i search for
those eyes that sparkled
when she chuckled
the round face that spelt
Joy
the tanned skin that  spoke
of her journey , in this world so real.
Ethereal indeed , a face that
anyone would want to hold.'
'But, i see you not, my friend.' 

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

THiS EmPTy RoOm

For all those little/young girls/women who are oppressed in a relationship and have lost their voice. I deeply feel there will always be at least one person out there who will be willing to listen and extend a helping hand . Your task is to seek before you give up ! 
Peace and Love ! 



          [PC- Pinterest - Charcoal Drawing by Kate  Zambrao]

It once held her life,
the disintegrating pieces of her life.
The paint on the walls soaked in tears long enough,
fell apart.
The air she struggled to breathe,
The shut window knew not.
The table in the corner which mirrored her loneliness, 
bathed in dust.
The crumbled sheets, 
she wrapped herself in
smelled of insecurity and fear.
Like her wings carrying untold tales
of abuse and insult, 
the broken shelves dangled.
Just as the words choked in her throat,
the damp air remained still
and the creaking fan refused to spin.

This room once held your life
the one in shambles.
Once you were full of life, 
 of limbs and bones,
of Flesh and Blood
Of hues of sunsets
of echoes of laughter.
Oh! i wish your silent whimpers
found their way to me
before you found your way out.

I pushed open the stubborn window.
The flying flake of snow, 
now, light and lifted.
The floating cold air 
carried her scent.
Nothing to hold the limitless flight
Onward on her boundless journey
past this  room,
Empty of love.
This Empty room....

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Like Never Before, I Ran !





(Pic Courtsey : Pinterest : runninglife.net )




Oh! These deafening noises
At my fastest, i ran
Away, Far away
Like Never Before, I ran.

Into the welcoming Silence.
I belonged ,or So, I believed,
settling in the lap of peace.
It grew and  grew
Into a size so enormous that
I feared it may swallow me

Oh ! This suffocating Silence
At my fastest, I ran
Away , Far away
Like Never before , I ran.


If we resort to running , there will be no end! Stop , pause , breathe , appreciate , strike the balance :) 

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Mashobra - The valleys Echo !




The 6 hour long drive on the winding roads from Chandigarh after the 3 hours of flying wasn't one I expected (read: wanted)  ! The initial sights of Chandigarh filled me with effervescence; the fields of wheat and the glimpses of the north Indian way of life was a thing of interest and curiosity to me as i am more familiar with the South Indian ways.
The ascend to Shimla began covered in dust and heat. The vision was blurred by the flying light brown air. I was hungry and the thought of some Dhaba food filled my mouth and soul , distracted  me from the visual discomforts. I kept pestering my husband every five minutes reminding him of my hunger which he religiously passed on to the driver . We stopped by a decent looking Dhaba a while later. Though not very hygienic, the delicious onion naan and butter chicken was devoured with the visuals of much liked NDTV Good Times 'Food Mad' Dhaba episodes playing in my head . Must be the heat, my tummy and mouth agreed to disagree on the food !!! The warm air on the face and the warm feeling inside the tummy was not at all heart – warming.
We continued our slow roller coaster ride upwards . Discomfort in the stomach and head made me very restless. I kept adjusting my position hoping the new one would be better only to go back to the old position in less than 5 mins. How much can you adjust in a 4 seater car carrying 4 people and 3 bags ! 
Oh !! But when the heaven showers blessings , it's always received with joy. The heavy downpour was a relief initially but the narrow roads edging into deep valleys, the big vehicles coming from the opposite direction and the low visibility gave an added discomfort of fear .
I kept talking to myself reassuring that I am ok and I will get there feeling as good as I left home. We had already completed almost 5 hours and the sign board that said 10 kms to Mashobra helped me relax a little not knowing that the 10 kms in Shimla is as long as 150kms in the UAE !!!!
All said and done...Mashobra received us in all its splendour . The mist around the cottage was one I had envisioned everyday before drifting off to sleep. It’s a routine actually. In the hot country that I live in , I create my own visuals of bliss during my bed time into which i snuggle peacefully. 
My husband's college friends were all eagerly waiting for us at the cottage to begin the party. They meet every year to relive the college times .  They share stories , discuss people , laugh over the imprudent acts, ponder over how much life has changed for each one, observe the spouses and kids with affection and curiosity. Friends who walked around care free once are now responsible fathers and mothers.
The bonfire , the dance , the steaming hot food was all worth absorbing. 
The beautiful roses bloomed in its full glory around Shimla which reminded me of the song 'Tum aa gaye ho,  noor aa gaya hain....' featuring the natural actor Sanjeev Kumar and the very gorgeous Suchitra Sen in the movie Aandhi. Such beauty that go beyond words.  
The tall trees around Mashobra took me to the woods I had experienced in San Francisco and it got me thinking how nature has been unbiased in giving the east and west it's best ! It's the level of maintenance and respect from us human beings that decide it's course. 
The shops selling the pashminas and rich embroidered kameezes adorned the steep , narrow, two way shopping street called The Mall road where vehicles are not allowed.   The mostly calm and undisturbed drivers with almost unbelievable control on the wheel brought in a sense of peace in an otherwise chaotic ambience. 
Our stay was at this absolutely beautiful resort with a breathtaking view of the valley where I experienced one of the best hospitality ever . They took care of us to the extent of bringing us packed rolls and sandwiches for lunch from the resort to our places of visit. This really was not a service that could be dismissed off saying 'we paid for it '. The delicious chappathi/chicken rolls , paneer rolls , vegetable / chicken sandwiches , various juices / soft drinks and not to miss the plum cake and berries for dessert , all packed well in the picnic basket was relished on , relaxing against a tall tree watching the beautiful  landscape of Shimla. 
The cold nights with mild drizzle were like the ones off the pages of a Ruskin Bond story. The all encompassing silence was a stark contrast to my Dubai that comes to life at dark. 
As i gazed into the depth of the valley , I thought of all the stories ; rational and irrational , of love and hatred, of ecstasy and agony, of  togetherness and solitude  that it would have witnessed and buried in its abyss. 
 Three nights and four days  of the college alumni meet gave the valleys a lot of laughter which echoed as we drove off …

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Silence on Wings


[Image Courtesy: anime-pictures.net]


Hey! My fellow warriors
My arms around you
For the wars you wage
Until you melt away
In the cosmic bliss!
Arent we all battling
From an age so young
Some are noticed
Some grow suppressed
Some we win and
Some we let them win !

Challenges dash to us
Calculating a fall and
A recoil into stillness
They know not
We hide Nerves of steel
Behind our honest smiles

Oh! Paralyzed it is
To be the blindfolded battler
Twirling the sword in the arena
Every chance we miss,
Is its opportunity to flee
spreading a vicious grin

Pain, the constant companion
Filled our days with doubt and misery
To our mirrors , we babbled and
Our pillows dried our tears

Through the woes and gloom
A strength that blooms
Is the strength to combat
Strength to stay true
Strength to make peace

One word of caution
To the forces trying hard
Its in you
To silences us, but
Slashed our wings are not

Silence on wings
Flutter until they deafen you
Silence on wings
Shall soar beyond your reach
This is a war
We wage to win!!

Dedicated to those battling chronic illness , in the body or mind or both !!

Monday, October 24, 2016

the Five people You Meet in Heaven








Philosophies centred around life and after have always intrigued me. That kind of wisdom that makes me contemplate, reflect and guide me on a journey that's entirely mine.

Mitch Albom has been one of my favorite authors since the time I read 'The Timekeeper'.  He has an amazing ability to weave prominent threads of philosophy into the fine fabric of fiction. He conveys important aspects of life's journey through beautiful stories in a believable manner.

The five people you meet in Heaven is a book on Eddie's ordinary life and the answers he receive on the same after he slips away. Heaven and the five people Eddie meet in Heaven give him a sense of what his life on Earth was about and why he was wherever he was doing whatever he did! Each one he meets in the afterlife has a significant lesson to impart which helps him understand every emotion that passed through him while on earth and release whatever negativity he was holding on to.

A beautiful simple book which made me think deeply about my connections in life ; the people who came, those who left,  ones who stayed , those who loved , the ones who hurt ! The experiences and emotions associated with each. I tried to make sense of the interactions, of the lessons learned, of this journey I have embarked on.

A must read for those who value and reflect on their own journey.

Excerpts from the book.

Lost love is still love ,Eddie. It takes a different form, that's all. You cant see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor . But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it . You hold it . You dance with it.

"Life has to end", she said , "Love doesn't. "


Saturday, October 15, 2016

Step Into their Shoes.....





Under the Sun gleaming
To me , belonged, the sea and the shore
Or so, in a mind hallucinating
I believed !

Watched the sapped Sun rush out
Moon in all its serendipity, beamed.
The rays fell on the lot
around me, whom I had noticed not !

Oh! I am not alone here
Standing in the midst of footprints, I conceived!
Observing the impressions, I fathom
It could be a Pakistani's , Arab's or a Philipino's !

Just another visitor I am , It dawned!
The earth and the sun and the moon
are as much theirs ,
as they are mine.

Scanning around I sense
children running about
Their breezy shadows tell me not
If they are African or American !

The winds carry their laughter
Loud ones rising in the air
Oh! Why does it sound just like
my childhood ?

The only border I could then see
was the one of the print,
my feet was comfortably resting in.
It wasn't difficult after all
To Step into their shoes.